The beginning of my history

I guess I should add a bit of foundation to this blog;that being the history of it all.
In August of 2008, I came down with flu like symptoms just 10 days before my eldest son's wedding. As the wedding day drew nearer I became sicker. All of my children were able to make it to town for the grand occasion and my house was buzzing with happiness and excitement. I, however, was quite the opposite. I was irritable and anxious while I shopped for last minute necessities, candle for the lighting ceremony, video tape for the video recorder, various ribbons, doilies and fancy mints. My biggest concern was, how was I going to walk down that carpeted aisle in high heeled sandles when I could barely walk period. How was I going to stand there recording the ceremony when I was nauseaous, and achy from my head to the souls of my feet.
Funny how when uncindutuinak gladness kicks in all other ailments just seem to dissolve. and a few days after the ceremony I felt fine. But not for long.
Within the next three and a half months I was stricken with nastier flu like symptoms. It took all my will power and energy to get up in the morning, get dressed and go to work. Once I got to work, it was the test of Job that allowed me to stay at work for a complete shift. Thank goodness I was the boss of my department so I could bail on a moment's notice without having to get anyone's permission. Finally seeking a doctor's help I was given antibiotics for a potential sinus infection. During the initial evaluation I was told that as soon as the "infection" cleared up I should see a specialist about why my abdomin was so tender. I didn't have to wait for long.
Ten days before Christmas I landed in the emergency room with cramps, nausea, dizziness, and extreme pain inmy back. I was admitted. During a battery of CT scans, MRI's and blood work. It was deduced that I had colitis and pancreatitist. Further investiagation of my scans found a mass onthe head of my pancreas. An endoscopic ultrasound along with a biopsy showed a tumor and a cyst. The Monday after Christmas the official diagnosis was made. I had pancreatic cancer.
I wasn't all that alarmed I have a strong history of cancer on my father's side. It was still a shock and I did some crying but I never once said or even thought, "Why Me Lord, why am I being punished?" Nope not once. Because I know that God does not punish, He rewards us in ways we cannot imagine.
Yes even my cancer can be looked at as a blessing from above.
#1 It has most assuredly brought me closer tomy God, my church, my friends and neighbors. There has been an unbelieable outpouring of prayers and blessings bestowed upon me since my diagnoses
#2. I think it has brought me and my husband closer together. We now go to church together and pray together and even cry together.
#3 Our nutritional lifestyle has taken a 360 degree turn. We are more aware of the value of a healthy eating lifestyle, and how valueable a 20 minute workout on the stationarty bike can be.
#4 And yes, you begin to see each day, each hour, and each minute in a new and refreshing light. You learn to LIVE not just exist.
#5 I has helped me face my true enemies; fear, gluttony, worry, doubt and the many many more that attempt to indrude into my life. And I face them all with a strength that can only be born of love ... LOVE OF MY HEAVENLY FATHER FOR ME....
#6 It is a daily reminder that God has decided to show me my next path in life and I am EXCITED, YES ... EXCITED about where do I get to go from here.
There are many more blessings that I can pull from this experience, those we will touch upon on a later page.

The climax to this chapter is that God has opened new doors to treatment. I am now in Tulsa OK. at one of the Cancer Treatment Centers of America. Here, they don't treat just the cancer, they treat the whole person BODY,MIND, SOUL AND SPIRIT.
It was a scary decision to make to go so far from home to get help and treatment, but it is turning out to be one of the best decisions God has made for us. Read Psalms 91 and you will know exactly what I mean.
Till the next page, and there will absolutly be a next page and a next chapter and even a next book.